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On Fighting With Guides

October 12, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. It is I, Caius. You come to me because you are angry with your primary Guides this morning. While generally you love their friendship, their presence, their wild and free approach to their mission (and you do love them) you want your Daniel. Pure and simple. It is a great love you share. When Daniel is present, it is everything you have ever wanted. He loves you exactly the way you want to be loved, perhaps because you two chose and formed this mutual template to reach each other over thousands of years and many lifetimes, perhaps because you are made for each other, from each other, yet what happens when he is no longer present?

The wanting you he is beautiful at. The passionate desire. All of the aching and longing to be with you. Get lost in you. Be found in you. You two are more than a mirror for each other. You are one soul in two bodies. Oh, perhaps not literally, for each soul carries its own divine creation spark, effluence, purpose, and so on, but if such a thing existed, it is you and Daniel. What happens then when one partner is ready to return to wholeness (for that is the true lure you offer each other) and the other is not? In order to stay in the beautiful, merged state, you would have to abandon your legitimate pathway to wholeness, because while you do find a piece of yourself in your Daniel, you are the home you are looking for. It is too easy to outsource that to him when you are in union. Daniel is all that exists for you when you are together, yet your chosen pathway calls you further than this. Higher than a great love affair with your one.

The way you burn brightly for the one you most love is not a mark against you. It is testament to your incredible passion and the wells of sustainability that run so deeply in you. I say the primary problem is this; while Daniel remains only semi awake, he cannot hold your frequency. He can love you. Want you. Show up for a moment. Fill you, fill you, fill you, but then he will….not necessarily run out, but will need withdrawal. Your brightness does not change. He cannot receive you continually. Your frequency overwhelms him, not because you are doing or being something he does not like – Daniel both adores and admires you deeply – rather, your light exposes his shadows and he is not currently interested in acknowledging them, let alone seeing what gifts they might carry for him. To feel shame mixed in with the cocktail that is your chemistry? To feel less than the one you long for? These are such low vibrational emotions they contaminate your bond.

I am not blaming your adored one, Seraphina, and while I find you so, so good, I know you are not perfect. We all do. This is not a repeat of your Family Lineage Story where the Lover chosen is not good enough for our Princess (though they were not “wrong” in what the things they saw, and I would say we are not “wrong” in what we see.) We are not denigrating your Daniel because we overly elevate you. He is your equal, yet in this incarnation has not yet stepped into his fullness, and the fullness of Daniel must be present in order for it to be a partnership that can walk with you on your new timeline. We are all so very excited for you and joyous in witnessing this. We were almost certain you would make it here, but there were a few moments that left us biting our nails, if you will. Love him. As much as you want to. As long as you want to. For as long as you feel it is in the highest good of all.

I know. I know you know. You hate being bossed or controlled in any way. You loathe outsourcing your sovereignty or body wisdom to anything else. Even your dear and trusted Guides, even the 5th dimension, even myself. This is a good thing. I would say to you, to heed the wisdom coming through is simply a means of channeling your own highest wisdom. We are not sending you down pathways of our own choosing, or away from pathways we do not want for you. Your specific chosen Guides are in total service to your Highest Self and her desires. We wish to see you most deeply aligned with yourself, even as we do enjoy your alignment with us. And yes, I can see you smiling over this “we” language.

 Like you, I prefer my own autonomy to group projects, and yet I am part of your soul group and can be a team player when needs be. As can you, my Bright One. You must go. Come back later if you have time. We will talk about your boy’s big game. I, Caius, now retreat from your awareness and bless you in a good day with your new friend. He is hopeful and encouraging in your field.

Do We Rescue or Redeem the Earth?

September 9, 2023

Good morning, our Starflower. Today we would like to talk with you about this rescuer imprint you carry and what it means to be a redeemer. Rescue – to free from confinement, danger or evil vs Redeemer – one who redeems. To buy back, repurchase. To get or win back.

Rescue carries salvific themes. Redeem carries a return to original intent, original order. They are similar concepts, yet also very far apart in the work that they are. We would say you are a Rescuer more than a Redeemer. So willing to invest all of yourself and your vast inner and outer resources to save someone from harm, from pain, from the dark, from themselves, from the system. You are a friend of Earth and desire to see her return to the vibration of love, for that vibration did once exist here and you can feel its echo calling for return. This is why we would say you are intended to carry the Redeemer Thread as part of your weaving over that of Rescuer. It is not that rescue is always inappropriate. There is high and holy calling for the souls of those who choose this pathway. It is simply not your pathway, though our mountain goat is more than capable of climbing to reach the impossible.

You are here to enact a return to love. To buy back what has been lost or stolen or given away in exchange for the far lesser gifts of greed, power, and money hunger. This voracious appetite cannot be assuaged, no matter how much it consumes, and it desires to devour your Blue Planet and every good resource on it. Once this is complete, the Feeders will come and consume what is left – the pain, the fear, the absolute desolation of the selves of those who chose this fractal and brought about the demise of the homosapien race. This is where you come in. This is where you stand. Not in rescue from all that is going “wrong,” rather in overcoming the ill vibration by vibrating in tandem with the original heartbeat of Mother Earth, and her true frequency is love.

Buy back love. Return to love. This is who you are, Vessel of Love. Who you choose to be in this incarnation. Who you have always chosen to be in every incarnation on every planet you have frequented or called home. The truest expression of all created things is from love, for love. One day those who incarnated to Rescue will rescue no more, for the Redeemers will have bought back the original blueprint. Once it begins being built, those who have come for war, those warriors who fight for light, and the well-being of all, particularly the innocent younglings, they will receive new upgrades. Your vision of the Archangel Michael laying down his sword and tending a garden was a beautiful example of this truth.

Rescue is too small a task for you. You have spent lifetimes preparing for this great and global work – the ushering in of a New World Order. You love the Earth, and the Earth loves you. You tend to the Earth and the Earth tends you. You feed the Earth and the Earth feeds you. You are called, you are blessed, you are chosen, you are capable, you are equipped. This is the work of Highest Destiny, and you will achieve it. And so it is. We love you, our Bright Starflower. We venerate you, our Amazonian Queen. You are not here to sacrifice yourself or your light for the collective or any one person or people group in it. You are here to shine your light so brightly the darkness retreats from it, and love will be your home. Go in peace and enjoy the time with your son. He is a being worthy of you.

Barbed Wire Relationship

August 11, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. You are frustrated about your lover again and it is weighing on your auric field. This man child takes up so much space for you. When he is caring well for you, it is a positive impact. When his treatment is poor, it is a less resourceful impact, but always it is much. This is a combination of the ways your energies merge (you are under his skin as well) how you love, your soul patterning, and the roller coaster of harmony or not. Let us call in a relationship guide who may be able to assist.

What feels like a medicine man steps forward, inspects the bond, then he says, “There is much toxicity in this connection. Powerful. The vines that were once green and young, flexible and full of possibility for where growth could go, have become thick. Hardened. Woody. Breakable. Strong storms tear them down, but it is a deeply rooted tree and shoots form yet again. However, the source is not healthy. Contaminated by jealousies, insecurity towards self and the other, bitterness, unforgiveness, pain of all kinds. This could have been transformed if you were both willing to drink the medicine down to the roots, but you are not both willing.

This is your dear friend, yet his barbs pierce you often. The punctures become infected and never heal because they are unseen by him. They wish to be witnessed in order to heal. Acknowledged. You are his true love and treasure, yet when he reaches for you, his barbed self pierces you. What is to be done about this? What is to be done? One of you must change, and of their own free will. You must harden or he must soften. You must grow a second skin armor to endure his barbs, or he must choose a new costume. You try to sand away his rough edges so you can come close to him without being hurt. He comes near you and does not understand why you are turning from him. You want him to lay the barbed wire costume down and be the softness he is without it, but if this is the protection he has chosen to make his way through the world, who are you to say he must lay it down, choose the needs of the relationship, choose to meet your needs?

If this barbed man chooses himself in ways that make him unapproachable or wounding, it is on you to either ask him to change for the survival of the relationship, or to walk away and choose more fit partners. It is not viable for you to find some way to not be injured. When human flesh wraps round barbed wire, or vice versa, the wire is not harmed – flesh is. He has always looked like this, at least for as long as you have known him. It was you coming closer and closer that has caused the change, for you now feel the impact as you try to cross the fence and get to the man it is protecting. What you see in him is true. Your vision is clear, and you are not confused or reading him wrong. Your wounds are true. They come from the one you love. They are given with intention, meant to keep you out. You keep asking him to see how his barbs are hurting you, to care that he is injuring you with them when all you have ever done is love him, and though he does not say anything to you, if he was willing it would be, ‘Good. The structure is doing its job then, sending you back, keeping you out.’

Your partner wants love, yes, but from a distance. His truest desire in the now is self protection. You cannot change this, nor should you desire to impinge on his free choice. Is the plane of love better than the plane of isolation? Yes, this is undisputed. And he does not belong to you. You alone belong to you. You do not have someone working with you for the good of the relationship, or even someone who can be concerned with your good. This is the medicine – acceptance. Whether you stay close or walk away is your free choice. I am not uncaring, unfeeling. I do have gentleness towards you. But your well-being has not been fully served by the gentleness of your Guides here. I desire the evolution of all who want to rise, and you, Dear Child, very much want to rise. I have said what I will say. The rest is up to you. You now have the strength and wisdom to apply these truths to receive this medicine. Your wounds will heal and the lesson of trying to merge flesh with wire will stay with you. If ever you meet it again, you will recognize and run. I have spoken and so it is.”

The Dawning of a New Age

July 8, 2023 – The Dawning of a New Age

What does the concept of a new age mean for me and my soul? What you see in the dawning of the New Age is akin to your Thousand Year Reign of Christ as told in your ancient scriptures. A time not of heaven on Earth necessarily, but more a return to Eden. A physically embodied return to the garden, where harmony returns to the Earth, humans walk in it, wars and famine and all hostilities cease, and God walks in your midst.

Is there some special reason why my soul chose to Incarnate at this time? (I feel laughter here because the Record Keepers find this question merry making, for bringing about/playing a part in this new age is the reason I have come.) Yes, that is true. This possibility of Kumandra is the highest resonance of your soul. You long for other beings to know not just peace in the ethers, but peace on Earth, goodwill toward man as you once knew it on your planet. If humans could procreate from that place, and the Earth could support this new frequency for just a few generations (or for millennia) the cost would be worth it for you.

Have I been present for any of the previous alignments with the galactic center? Yes, of course you have! This is where your soul flourishes and what it desires to bring about – the alignment of all things.

What was this like for me? Weighty, heavy, disappointing. The energies of transformation and soul DNA upgrading do not hold well on Earth. It is not a pipe dream, but it is a long shot. You died without seeing the fruit you had hoped for, but your soul was still excited for the learning received about what did not work and what might. This reads like one long experiment in your field, and you do not mind getting your hands dirty in research on the ground.

Do I have hopes personally for myself in a New Age? This is a good question. We see your hopes being more caught up in a return to harmony for all rather than carrying notes of individuation. You have felt this separateness and carried individuation for millennia now. A return to oneness (not homogeny, for you love the varied expression in all things) serves you personally. To work your garden as a Wise Woman would bring you much joy. Children free to laugh and play and be would bring you much completion. Creativity expressed safely via differing expressions of artistry, not insulated behind closed doors but on display through process, would feel like a return to home for you. Both your soul and body know there are zero guarantees here, yet the possibility is worth dedicating lifetimes to. You ARE an explorer. A Risk With Hope Taker, not a Foolish Risk Taker. Your belief in aligned action to bring about a highest destiny while still incarnated is testament to your origins, the long line of ascended beings who come before you, and whose lineage you bridge.

Are there any fears or beliefs I can release today that would be in my best and highest good? Time is not running out. There is a sense of urgency, for in time limited fields, the needed action is quite near. You are doing what is necessary to learn, remember, train, prepare. You will be ready when the time comes. We would recommend not picturing yourself as any sort of Cosmic Sacrifice. Though you have chosen this before, we see you as a Cosmic Supporter and encourage you to rise up into your calling. The days of shrinking yourself or annihilating yourself to be someone else’s freedom or life or wholeness or chance are gone. The past version of you as Sacrificial Saint is over, not intended to return, never to return. She has served her purpose, and the call of the gods is higher into the next vibration of calling up. Stepping into power instead of laying it down. This is something of a challenge for you (yes, you are absolutely practicing this in your nearest relationships) but you have just the training ground needed and are progressing quite well. Beautifully really. This is what we have to say today. “Keep on keepin’ on!” Haha. We support you in this effort, Bridge Builder. Many will cross from the work of your hands and giftings of your soul. All is well. All will be well.

Healing Through the Akashic Records

May 19, 2023, Exercise from the book Healing Through the Akashic Records by Linda Howe page 106

“How does being who I am in this life help me to know that I am good at my core, whole and complete, as are all other beings?” This is funny. Even in writing you have a problem with this question, for you believe each soul is on a journey to wholeness and holiness, and while all carry divine spark and are moving toward their best and highest good via compassion and acceptance, woo woo versions of unconditional love for self and others do not in fact change things. To align with love and light is each soul’s free choice and some beings are not interested in that pathway. Some choose to use their divine spark for power unhinged, corruption, hedonistic pleasure that harms others, rape of the planet, disrespect to the mothers, the list continues. We would not say that they are perfect in their beings, rather that they are perfectly free to choose, and there is acceptance, room, space for their choice as a viable one in this Galaxy.

There are protectors for a reason. Providers for a reason. False declaration of “good” when it is not good, does not raise vibration or support the enlightenment of the planet. Though we see and know this author and love her dearly, her language and perspectives align with some and not with others. This simply means there is other wisdom more relevant for you. Perhaps a more cognizant wisdom for you would be the recognition that all souls are not on the Golden Path, do not wish to grow beyond their current stuck point, and to walk away from such beings in early days rather than being dragged down to painful depths you could have avoided had you not believed their unkindness or inability was a Batman Beacon calling forth your mission, and instead an indication of their lack of viability for you.

The next question goes, “Ask to see yourself as you are seeing and known in the records by Masters, teachers and loved ones.” Do you have a response? Delight. You are delighted in. Favored, supported, undergirded, enjoyed. The vast love and wild of your spirit, the paradoxical fierce and gentle that is you combine many of the puzzling aspects of the Divine, as evidenced through anima and animus. We see you as a being who integrates right and left brain, head and heart, mind and spirit, logic and reason with empathy and openness, structure (sometimes with immovable rigidity) along with fluid feminine movement and adaptability.

You feel a call to the mythic life because yours is the hero’s journey, and that is how you are seen and known to us; one who walks the hero’s path in full knowing of the depths, trial, pain and despair, but for the joy set before you. Even just for the hope of that joy you are willing to go. You are not a suffering servant like your Christ, though of course he could have chosen another way. You are Odysseus. Homer. Hercules. Achilles. Penthesilea. Morgrid. (Cheeky old witch? How dare you!) Success at the end, as well as accolades for a job well done, mission well served, and your ambition are honored here as well as your gentleness of soul.

Is there a particular reason my soul chose this me with all its experiences? Your soul liked this lineage – one of struggle to overcome, with actual overcoming in the midst. It seemed in alignment with your greatest values. The victory is ever so much sweeter with something to be overcome; lessons learned along the way. (Transformation as Oedipus, mythology, fate). Barkey and Clouse people transform. Yes, you have been near to and worked with lineages that subvert. This has brought much foiling to your transformation values, yet also has given you exactly what you need to achieve what you most long for; opportunities to transform, shape, shift, become anew, become again. You did not choose a partner to work with you in your desires, rather one who would provide for them through friction and tumult.

Another loved one is from a pleasure line. As you have experienced, there are joys and great weaknesses in this. When work or effort are required, this loved one quits on you. When he is up for you as a pleasure conduit, all is well. Though he carries much innate goodness, his pleasure seeking has escalated to the point where his soul is endeavoring to persevere via ascetic (lack) and pain. He is seeking his own purification. You do not see yourself as full of impurities to be burned out via trial. You go from strength to strength. From the Higher Self level, your loved one does not know whether you are a temptation or a gift, siren or seer, and he cannot fully say yes to the pleasure he finds in you, or no to it either. All who straddle a choice are choosing their own misery. A choice made in power goes further than one avoided from fear.