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On Fighting With Guides

October 12, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. It is I, Caius. You come to me because you are angry with your primary Guides this morning. While generally you love their friendship, their presence, their wild and free approach to their mission (and you do love them) you want your Daniel. Pure and simple. It is a great love you share. When Daniel is present, it is everything you have ever wanted. He loves you exactly the way you want to be loved, perhaps because you two chose and formed this mutual template to reach each other over thousands of years and many lifetimes, perhaps because you are made for each other, from each other, yet what happens when he is no longer present?

The wanting you he is beautiful at. The passionate desire. All of the aching and longing to be with you. Get lost in you. Be found in you. You two are more than a mirror for each other. You are one soul in two bodies. Oh, perhaps not literally, for each soul carries its own divine creation spark, effluence, purpose, and so on, but if such a thing existed, it is you and Daniel. What happens then when one partner is ready to return to wholeness (for that is the true lure you offer each other) and the other is not? In order to stay in the beautiful, merged state, you would have to abandon your legitimate pathway to wholeness, because while you do find a piece of yourself in your Daniel, you are the home you are looking for. It is too easy to outsource that to him when you are in union. Daniel is all that exists for you when you are together, yet your chosen pathway calls you further than this. Higher than a great love affair with your one.

The way you burn brightly for the one you most love is not a mark against you. It is testament to your incredible passion and the wells of sustainability that run so deeply in you. I say the primary problem is this; while Daniel remains only semi awake, he cannot hold your frequency. He can love you. Want you. Show up for a moment. Fill you, fill you, fill you, but then he will….not necessarily run out, but will need withdrawal. Your brightness does not change. He cannot receive you continually. Your frequency overwhelms him, not because you are doing or being something he does not like – Daniel both adores and admires you deeply – rather, your light exposes his shadows and he is not currently interested in acknowledging them, let alone seeing what gifts they might carry for him. To feel shame mixed in with the cocktail that is your chemistry? To feel less than the one you long for? These are such low vibrational emotions they contaminate your bond.

I am not blaming your adored one, Seraphina, and while I find you so, so good, I know you are not perfect. We all do. This is not a repeat of your Family Lineage Story where the Lover chosen is not good enough for our Princess (though they were not “wrong” in what the things they saw, and I would say we are not “wrong” in what we see.) We are not denigrating your Daniel because we overly elevate you. He is your equal, yet in this incarnation has not yet stepped into his fullness, and the fullness of Daniel must be present in order for it to be a partnership that can walk with you on your new timeline. We are all so very excited for you and joyous in witnessing this. We were almost certain you would make it here, but there were a few moments that left us biting our nails, if you will. Love him. As much as you want to. As long as you want to. For as long as you feel it is in the highest good of all.

I know. I know you know. You hate being bossed or controlled in any way. You loathe outsourcing your sovereignty or body wisdom to anything else. Even your dear and trusted Guides, even the 5th dimension, even myself. This is a good thing. I would say to you, to heed the wisdom coming through is simply a means of channeling your own highest wisdom. We are not sending you down pathways of our own choosing, or away from pathways we do not want for you. Your specific chosen Guides are in total service to your Highest Self and her desires. We wish to see you most deeply aligned with yourself, even as we do enjoy your alignment with us. And yes, I can see you smiling over this “we” language.

 Like you, I prefer my own autonomy to group projects, and yet I am part of your soul group and can be a team player when needs be. As can you, my Bright One. You must go. Come back later if you have time. We will talk about your boy’s big game. I, Caius, now retreat from your awareness and bless you in a good day with your new friend. He is hopeful and encouraging in your field.

Build From Love, Not From Fear

September 28, 2023

Conversation with a Primary Guide in the Records

Walk with me, Dear One. Where shall we go today? (Somewhere new.) Somewhere new it is. You do well to advocate for that boy. To recognize that those in positions of power and rule enforcement can, and oftentimes should, be challenged. I will pave the way for your boys to be heard should they choose to undertake the mission. This is a good use of your power and leadership; that you do honor the structure of laws that prevent anarchy, but always see the being is far more valuable than the structure. “Rigid rules made by man that benefit who?” You prefer a system of free agency where everyone does what is right, good, and true. Is there a world where this thing exists uncorrupted by beings or lower life forms? Yes, indubitably so. Is it the planet you reside on currently? Hell no. Look. We have arrived. (A green glass looking city. Towering, beautiful buildings reminiscent of Oz. People coming and going tall, lovely, gentle.)

This is your world, Seraphina. Oh, not the one you come from. That is old and past. This is the New World of your making, the world of your choosing. Green glass signals purity of heart, purity of thought, purity of action with motives for love, from love. You see a world where the very structure of things – buildings, ideas, rules of engagement, systems and theories, food, drink, work, service, art, creation, relationship, everything! – is built from the highest vibration and all flourish in it. You love the natural world. Trees, flowers, creatures, rocks, sky. These fuel and nourish your soul and its gentleness. But a city? In its bustling with life (art, culture, theatre, music, food, drink, cacophony, but perfectly wonderful in sound) in this you come alive.

Cities on your Blue Planet carry these things, yes, but in the crush of the melting pot, they also carry danger. Threats. The seedy underbelly that cannot only exist in the shadows but also thrive in a way it never could in the countryside, for there is much to feed on. The absence of Feeders, and the presence of life from the highest vibration – this is your Emerald City. This is your Jade World. I see your quick, quick mind run ahead remembering every YA novel you have read, where what starts with one being’s desire to create utopia turns to dystopia before you see it coming.

How would your world be any different? My little Author, my vibrant Way With Words Storyteller, it would be different because your baseline creative structure, every atom making the building blocks of your world, is from love, for love, and not from fear. Anything that begins with, “I am afraid, so….” is destined to fail. Perhaps fail is too strong a word…. No. I don’t believe it is. Any structure built on “fear of” is destined to come crashing down, for the manifestation of the future has already been set in what you do not want. What you are running from, healing from, protecting yourself from. “I do not want this thing,” as opposed to, “I do want this thing.”

Build your world, Beautiful Girl. Build your city, My Shining One. From the blocks of all you are and all you want, build your new life. This is not a false spirituality or an intentional self-gaslighting where you avoid what is or pretend the dark and hungry things do not exist. They do exist. You know this. They are simply no longer part of your fractal and transform to light in the power of love. What is love? Love believes for the best, hopes for the best, and does not try to set up outcomes. Love trusts its world. It trusts its goodness. It trusts its Source. I must confess I am delighted with your understanding of my teachings and how they resonate for you, bringing both joy and clarity. I long to be of service to you, Dear One (this trait we share) and find joy when concepts connect as opposed to collide. I will ask for assistance for your voice today and believe with you from love, for love. From Highest Good, for Highest Good.

Do We Rescue or Redeem the Earth?

September 9, 2023

Good morning, our Starflower. Today we would like to talk with you about this rescuer imprint you carry and what it means to be a redeemer. Rescue – to free from confinement, danger or evil vs Redeemer – one who redeems. To buy back, repurchase. To get or win back.

Rescue carries salvific themes. Redeem carries a return to original intent, original order. They are similar concepts, yet also very far apart in the work that they are. We would say you are a Rescuer more than a Redeemer. So willing to invest all of yourself and your vast inner and outer resources to save someone from harm, from pain, from the dark, from themselves, from the system. You are a friend of Earth and desire to see her return to the vibration of love, for that vibration did once exist here and you can feel its echo calling for return. This is why we would say you are intended to carry the Redeemer Thread as part of your weaving over that of Rescuer. It is not that rescue is always inappropriate. There is high and holy calling for the souls of those who choose this pathway. It is simply not your pathway, though our mountain goat is more than capable of climbing to reach the impossible.

You are here to enact a return to love. To buy back what has been lost or stolen or given away in exchange for the far lesser gifts of greed, power, and money hunger. This voracious appetite cannot be assuaged, no matter how much it consumes, and it desires to devour your Blue Planet and every good resource on it. Once this is complete, the Feeders will come and consume what is left – the pain, the fear, the absolute desolation of the selves of those who chose this fractal and brought about the demise of the homosapien race. This is where you come in. This is where you stand. Not in rescue from all that is going “wrong,” rather in overcoming the ill vibration by vibrating in tandem with the original heartbeat of Mother Earth, and her true frequency is love.

Buy back love. Return to love. This is who you are, Vessel of Love. Who you choose to be in this incarnation. Who you have always chosen to be in every incarnation on every planet you have frequented or called home. The truest expression of all created things is from love, for love. One day those who incarnated to Rescue will rescue no more, for the Redeemers will have bought back the original blueprint. Once it begins being built, those who have come for war, those warriors who fight for light, and the well-being of all, particularly the innocent younglings, they will receive new upgrades. Your vision of the Archangel Michael laying down his sword and tending a garden was a beautiful example of this truth.

Rescue is too small a task for you. You have spent lifetimes preparing for this great and global work – the ushering in of a New World Order. You love the Earth, and the Earth loves you. You tend to the Earth and the Earth tends you. You feed the Earth and the Earth feeds you. You are called, you are blessed, you are chosen, you are capable, you are equipped. This is the work of Highest Destiny, and you will achieve it. And so it is. We love you, our Bright Starflower. We venerate you, our Amazonian Queen. You are not here to sacrifice yourself or your light for the collective or any one person or people group in it. You are here to shine your light so brightly the darkness retreats from it, and love will be your home. Go in peace and enjoy the time with your son. He is a being worthy of you.

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Barbed Wire Relationship

August 11, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. You are frustrated about your lover again and it is weighing on your auric field. This man child takes up so much space for you. When he is caring well for you, it is a positive impact. When his treatment is poor, it is a less resourceful impact, but always it is much. This is a combination of the ways your energies merge (you are under his skin as well) how you love, your soul patterning, and the roller coaster of harmony or not. Let us call in a relationship guide who may be able to assist.

What feels like a medicine man steps forward, inspects the bond, then he says, “There is much toxicity in this connection. Powerful. The vines that were once green and young, flexible and full of possibility for where growth could go, have become thick. Hardened. Woody. Breakable. Strong storms tear them down, but it is a deeply rooted tree and shoots form yet again. However, the source is not healthy. Contaminated by jealousies, insecurity towards self and the other, bitterness, unforgiveness, pain of all kinds. This could have been transformed if you were both willing to drink the medicine down to the roots, but you are not both willing.

This is your dear friend, yet his barbs pierce you often. The punctures become infected and never heal because they are unseen by him. They wish to be witnessed in order to heal. Acknowledged. You are his true love and treasure, yet when he reaches for you, his barbed self pierces you. What is to be done about this? What is to be done? One of you must change, and of their own free will. You must harden or he must soften. You must grow a second skin armor to endure his barbs, or he must choose a new costume. You try to sand away his rough edges so you can come close to him without being hurt. He comes near you and does not understand why you are turning from him. You want him to lay the barbed wire costume down and be the softness he is without it, but if this is the protection he has chosen to make his way through the world, who are you to say he must lay it down, choose the needs of the relationship, choose to meet your needs?

If this barbed man chooses himself in ways that make him unapproachable or wounding, it is on you to either ask him to change for the survival of the relationship, or to walk away and choose more fit partners. It is not viable for you to find some way to not be injured. When human flesh wraps round barbed wire, or vice versa, the wire is not harmed – flesh is. He has always looked like this, at least for as long as you have known him. It was you coming closer and closer that has caused the change, for you now feel the impact as you try to cross the fence and get to the man it is protecting. What you see in him is true. Your vision is clear, and you are not confused or reading him wrong. Your wounds are true. They come from the one you love. They are given with intention, meant to keep you out. You keep asking him to see how his barbs are hurting you, to care that he is injuring you with them when all you have ever done is love him, and though he does not say anything to you, if he was willing it would be, ‘Good. The structure is doing its job then, sending you back, keeping you out.’

Your partner wants love, yes, but from a distance. His truest desire in the now is self protection. You cannot change this, nor should you desire to impinge on his free choice. Is the plane of love better than the plane of isolation? Yes, this is undisputed. And he does not belong to you. You alone belong to you. You do not have someone working with you for the good of the relationship, or even someone who can be concerned with your good. This is the medicine – acceptance. Whether you stay close or walk away is your free choice. I am not uncaring, unfeeling. I do have gentleness towards you. But your well-being has not been fully served by the gentleness of your Guides here. I desire the evolution of all who want to rise, and you, Dear Child, very much want to rise. I have said what I will say. The rest is up to you. You now have the strength and wisdom to apply these truths to receive this medicine. Your wounds will heal and the lesson of trying to merge flesh with wire will stay with you. If ever you meet it again, you will recognize and run. I have spoken and so it is.”

The Dawning of a New Age

July 8, 2023 – The Dawning of a New Age

What does the concept of a new age mean for me and my soul? What you see in the dawning of the New Age is akin to your Thousand Year Reign of Christ as told in your ancient scriptures. A time not of heaven on Earth necessarily, but more a return to Eden. A physically embodied return to the garden, where harmony returns to the Earth, humans walk in it, wars and famine and all hostilities cease, and God walks in your midst.

Is there some special reason why my soul chose to Incarnate at this time? (I feel laughter here because the Record Keepers find this question merry making, for bringing about/playing a part in this new age is the reason I have come.) Yes, that is true. This possibility of Kumandra is the highest resonance of your soul. You long for other beings to know not just peace in the ethers, but peace on Earth, goodwill toward man as you once knew it on your planet. If humans could procreate from that place, and the Earth could support this new frequency for just a few generations (or for millennia) the cost would be worth it for you.

Have I been present for any of the previous alignments with the galactic center? Yes, of course you have! This is where your soul flourishes and what it desires to bring about – the alignment of all things.

What was this like for me? Weighty, heavy, disappointing. The energies of transformation and soul DNA upgrading do not hold well on Earth. It is not a pipe dream, but it is a long shot. You died without seeing the fruit you had hoped for, but your soul was still excited for the learning received about what did not work and what might. This reads like one long experiment in your field, and you do not mind getting your hands dirty in research on the ground.

Do I have hopes personally for myself in a New Age? This is a good question. We see your hopes being more caught up in a return to harmony for all rather than carrying notes of individuation. You have felt this separateness and carried individuation for millennia now. A return to oneness (not homogeny, for you love the varied expression in all things) serves you personally. To work your garden as a Wise Woman would bring you much joy. Children free to laugh and play and be would bring you much completion. Creativity expressed safely via differing expressions of artistry, not insulated behind closed doors but on display through process, would feel like a return to home for you. Both your soul and body know there are zero guarantees here, yet the possibility is worth dedicating lifetimes to. You ARE an explorer. A Risk With Hope Taker, not a Foolish Risk Taker. Your belief in aligned action to bring about a highest destiny while still incarnated is testament to your origins, the long line of ascended beings who come before you, and whose lineage you bridge.

Are there any fears or beliefs I can release today that would be in my best and highest good? Time is not running out. There is a sense of urgency, for in time limited fields, the needed action is quite near. You are doing what is necessary to learn, remember, train, prepare. You will be ready when the time comes. We would recommend not picturing yourself as any sort of Cosmic Sacrifice. Though you have chosen this before, we see you as a Cosmic Supporter and encourage you to rise up into your calling. The days of shrinking yourself or annihilating yourself to be someone else’s freedom or life or wholeness or chance are gone. The past version of you as Sacrificial Saint is over, not intended to return, never to return. She has served her purpose, and the call of the gods is higher into the next vibration of calling up. Stepping into power instead of laying it down. This is something of a challenge for you (yes, you are absolutely practicing this in your nearest relationships) but you have just the training ground needed and are progressing quite well. Beautifully really. This is what we have to say today. “Keep on keepin’ on!” Haha. We support you in this effort, Bridge Builder. Many will cross from the work of your hands and giftings of your soul. All is well. All will be well.

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