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Addiction Pain in Relationship

May 10, 2024

You come wishing to know Patrick in the light of the Akashic Records, for you are very ready to close the container of pain he has been for you and move on, but he does not wish to be known by you, nor does he wish to know you, for then he must own the being he is and the choices he has made. Addiction is a very hard path, whether one chooses it pre-incarnation or steps into it once on the Earth plane. He feels dirty and tainted in the light of your love for him. It does not feel like a gift, for he feels undeserving. Patrick does not experience life through the lens of want. He craves. He craves, but is never satisfied. He is (perhaps) choosing a sober lifestyle, but he has not yet found any inner healing for the wounds that led him to choose substance as the remedy. Patrick is the Magician and carries all Kings within him, has been all Kings in past lifetimes, so rarely has his relationship with power been balanced or healthy.

He has often been carousing and grabbing with his resources, with his charm, with his agency, at the cost of others, yet he generally carries a deep heart as well. Deep heart is not the same thing as conscience. It is simply capacity for vast feeling and empathy. Character is needed to carry deep heart, strong craving, wells of empathy, and compassion for the “lesser.” Talent, winsomeness, might, along with a mind so busy it is often racing describe your Patrick. Some of these are the true nature of his soul and origins, some are residual Earth wounds that follow him from lifetime to lifetime and grow. The backlog of all is felt as a heavy weight in this incarnation, and thus far he has not found a way to incorporate all he is in one human container. He will delve fully into one arena, distancing himself from all others, then he will shut that part down, moving on to another, as if that is a remedy for the imbalance and massive personality swings he experiences.

His mind is corrupted. As in clouded. There is fog and residual film left from the years of hard drug use. His body, mind, heart, and psyche have all been abused and carried the signature of abuse, whether he now enacts it toward himself or another. This is the signature that is currently replicating, currently reproducing within him in this lifetime. Patrick is not willing to actively abuse another, but what is within always makes its way out at some point. He was ready for the upgrade when you came on the scene, Dear One. He was magnetically drawn to you, recognized your signature, craved you insatiably as he does all things he wants, yet when the timeline jump came, you leapt to the new reality and he did not.

The plan was to go together. To heal, transform, upgrade in tandem with each other. The passion between you was not just physical, it was electric on every level of your being, therefore it was going to bring power to every area it touched. That power filled you up in the best way and brought enough centrifugal force to propel you to the next level. That same beautiful power overloaded his panel and multiple circuits broke, shutting down his energy grid instead of upgrading it. If you can step back from the romantic wounding – which is deep and wrenching and painful to your bones – and see him from the soul level, the story reads differently. Two soul mates who met at the predestined time they had chosen together because both were ready to transcend what had come before and reach the next version of themselves together. You do well to comfort Patrick, letting him know his purpose in your life was accomplished, for nothing in your contract includes you being part of his devolution, self loathing or guilt signature. The line you vibrate on is love and light. The charge is in the kilowatts. If Patrick can only handle love in watts…..you understand the point we are making.

As this murder of crows captures the attention just now causing us to pause, listen more deeply, scan the sky more thoroughly, then alight on what is taking place – one Broadwing Hawk in their tree and another roosting on the pole below – let it be allegory of the loudness in your pain with Patrick. Continual and cawing though it is, it points you to pause, to listen, to see, and in this presence you will find the truths hidden in the noise. The wound of rejection for being the love and light you are and offering it to your chosen one in full abandon is loudly painful. Constant, crowing, interrupting your peace, calling for your attention, which you have done well giving, but you are one who particularly loves harmony, so continual dissonance of sound is an unwelcome disruption. However, if you begin to see the purpose in the messaging, it becomes interesting instead of frustrating.

He continues to be in service to you, as you are to him. This bond is a fast track to growth path, but the way through or out of it is not a quick journey. It will close on its own when all lessons have been gleaned and not before. You need not be anxious about pathology on your end. You are attuned and in tune. It unfolds in layers, and this was the layer willing to be revealed today. We thank you for your time and diligent listening, and we now retreat from your awareness leaving you with more clearness in your field as some of the debris caused by your relating with Patrick is now dissolved to light. And so it is. Amen.

Hannah the Bull Terrier

February 25, 2024

Hello, Bright Star. You wish to know Hannah, the Bull Terrier, in the light of the Akashic Records. Let us take a moment and connect with her spirit.

Oh, this is interesting. Although Hannah is currently in canine form and Victor human, he is presenting as guard dog over her, not wanting anyone to have access in case they are dangerous or have unclean motives. Truly this is how he functions with all the daughters in his tribe. (Even his partnered wife reads as something of a daughter in the soul field for his desire to protect, protect, protect, keep safe, keep safe, keep safe makes it difficult for him to receive anyone as an equal.) We do not see him laying his shields or staff down anytime soon. Though there can be misfires in relational mutuality, this is not actually out of alignment for Victor. He is meant to work hard, remain watchful, scan for what may be coming that is not in service to his pod and repel it. He is not a warm or fuzzy being, but he is good, honorable and living in alignment with his Higher Self’s best directives.

Brother. We see and venerate your Soul Work and Earthwork. We mean your Hannah girl no harm and simply wish our healers to connect to discern her needs and wishes. Thank you for allowing access.

We sit in a circle together, but Hannah does not look like a dog. She looks like a little girl, blonde and sweet, sad and disoriented. She feels more like people – a peer with Verity and the girls – than she does an actual pet. Victor reads as father and protector, Verity and the girls as sisters. What is taking place here in Hannah’s body?

There is a virus that has infiltrated her myelin sheath. It is strong and fierce and wishes to consume her. Not from malice necessarily, it is simply being a virus wanting to live and propagate, as do all organisms on the Earth Plane. When the myelin sheath is bridged, this creates incredible disruption to the body. The electrical impulses from brain to nerves are interrupted, causing surges too large to be managed, and we see this as the cause of the seizures. This is not a death sentence necessarily (we realize that is harsh language and also understand the family wishes to care for her well if her transition is near) but it does signal the end of her health as they have all known it. Hannah is not unwilling to have the experience of being a health challenged dog. There is a curiosity around, “Oh, I wonder what this is like…” and she is not currently experiencing severe pain. This is a degenerative condition, but that does not mean she could not still enjoy life.

She is also willing to say goodbye to her family if being a handicapped dog on her way to transition is too disorienting, grievous and costly for the unit. Hannah has deeply enjoyed her time in the love circle of these sisters. She is very happy in the soul plane as well and says she would take a turn watching over Victor and the girls, and would be just as good at it as he is. Ha! She loves them. She knows she is loved in return. She trusts them, their care of her and the timeline for her life. They have co-created this journey together. Whatever they choose as her decision makers, she is whispering in their ears, and it is right. She blows her family kisses and lays down to sleep. Thank you for your time and care in asking, Daughter. The records of Hannah, the Bull Terrier are now closed. Amen.

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All Beings, All Queries are Welcome in the Records

December 12, 2023

In this Akashic Group you lead, we desire beings to be led home to themselves. There is more freedom in the Records than you have been taught. More openness, less rigidity of structure. You have both the freedom and permission to read for Other – anyone or anything by simply adding the caveat, “If they are willing to be read for, I receive whatever guidance comes through on _________ behalf.” We recommend entering the Records through your own stream with your own Guides, and from that place of light, safety, and being held by Divine Order and Structure, open the Records of Other – of the kitten, or the child, or the business, or the relationship, or the tree. An interesting way to delineate energies would be to enter with the traditional prayer, and then while in the Library use the Prayer of the New World to ask for secondary guidance. Yes. We are quite pleased with this direction.

That is what we offer – simple direction. We do not make choices for you, nor do we set parameters for your engagement with us. The parameters already exist. The structure holds them in place. Were a being to come in desiring information for the purpose of spreading malicious gossip, they are free to enter and ask. Who is to say Guides and Guidance would not show up to address their wound of bitterness, or envy, or shame, or whatever the underlying cause of impure askings was? There is no judgement here. You are seen in Light, held by Light, and the lessons your soul has chosen reverberate in your field and in the Akash. Our point being, however you enter and whatever question brings you here, the “answers” that best serve you will swirl around you like a crop of stardust, waiting to enter your being if you choose.

That you bring yourself to the Akasha is the jewel, and transformation takes places as much in the energy as it does in specific guidance. The signature of pure love, acceptance, and support without judgement for one’s perfection or way of showing up is where the true magic of entering the Records lies. We invite you, come. Come. Come. This is prayer. This is communion. This is oneness with Source. This is reconnection with your soul, and your truest desires reveal themselves to you here in our presence. You can trust our presence. You can trust our care.

Are there wisdoms in how to approach an infinite field of knowledge? Certainly. Indubitably so. And even if you get it “wrong”, there is Light waiting for you here. We would rather you come and receive our influence, our vibrations, than have you hesitate because you are unsure of the perfections of your arrival. Of course you are imperfect! You have chosen the Mystery School of Earth as an immersive training ground because you desire continued growth, continued elevation, continued becoming. If you are not yet returned to Source, you are still being perfected if you will. There is a beauty in your choosing humanity knowing the imperfections you will embody to do so. It is holy work inhabiting flesh, and we venerate you for choosing it. We do not judge you. It is an accelerated path.

We believe we have been as clear as humanly and otherworldly possible – COME. You are welcome. You are wanted. We will meet you where you are and through it you will rise. The vibration of the Other you come with is secondary to our joy in your presence. And so it is. We now recede from awareness and seal this message to into the fabric of the collective.

The Gods We Choose

October 3, 2023

Good morning, Starflower. How sweet that you saw your Jesus as welcome when stepping into the light of the divine. He is so familiar to you, your most familiar and trusted expression of divine love, light, and truth. It is good that God the Father (YAWEH) as evidenced in the Old Testament, was never the god you aligned with or wanted to worship. Harsh in his Holiness. Vengeful. Lacking in veneration of women and children, though choosing to provide for them. This is the god of the patriarchy, and patriarchy is not your system. The gods we align with – the gods we do or do not choose – are all expressions of some vector of divine truth, just as every soul carries expression of divine truth, and our guiding gods speak just as much to who we are as who they are.

Your Jesus (as you understand him, and perhaps as he revealed himself to you) was gentle. Powerful, but choosing to lay his power down for a higher purpose. A greater good. Tasked with a great and glorious mission only he could fulfill that was in service to both higher power and human/earthly restoration. Meditative. Contemplative. Prayerful. Sacrificial. Pouring out all in the public sector, then retreating to his hilltop to commune alone with God and repair himself, recover his equilibrium. Few material possessions yet abundant in the wealth of calling up natural resources. A Healer. A Teacher. A humble king, choosing to lay down his crown and serve. Friend of sinners. Lover of the broken. Infinitely compassionate. Zero interest in compliance with the political, religious, or social rules and moors of his day. Marching to the beat of his own moral compass, inner truth, and soul directive. Completely assured of his purpose, whether it was seen and supported by others, even down to his own family. “Come out from among them and be separate.”

Who is Jesus? He is the being found your SELF in. He is all you find worthy of love, honor, high esteem, worship, veneration, and dedicating your life to. His pathway is one you have been willing to follow because it feels like you. It vibrates with a resonance you feel deeper than your bones and into every level of your auric field. Are there ways where your deep love for Jesus have not lived in service to you? Certainly. We would say too much self sacrifice was the greatest harm. Secondary harm came via the tenants of the church, but these you did not take in the same way, for you could feel the misalignment in many of them. If the church was the bride of Christ yet not Christ, you could love her but be separate from her.

Beloved, we would say to you loudly and clearly, fully and deeply, wildly and resoundingly, there is no need to separate from your Jesus as you walk this new way. You are looking for some stable ground under your feet in this brutally unstable life season where all is in transition. You have stability in Jesus. We would say again, you have stability in Jesus. Let him reveal new to you facets of his being. Become more fully acquainted with his hospitality. Love him for all that he is, not just the parts you are intimately acquainted with in the now. He is solid ground under your feet. He is the ground on which you stand. For you, there is no one higher and this is good. This is right. We believe we have said enough for now. Your body is ready to move, though your spirit is happy here with us. You are beautifully capable of holding and providing for both vehicles, as was your Jesus, and we leave you to tend to your body. It is truly joy and delight to watch your cells coming to light, your fractal spinning a new way, and the life abundant utterly covering you.

The Problem of Evil

January 25, 2026 Metatron is speaking Good morning, Daughter of my Heart. Come in. Take your place in the chair by the fire. Receive the drink I offer and we will begin. Your emotion is welcome here. The power of your heart, rightly expressed, always has a home with me. Nothing need be hidden or…

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What Is Love?

October 21, 2025 My High Heart The love of God, the heart of God. Here is home, here you rest. Here you are held, here you are safe. I am your high heart expressing in form this day, for you have forgotten in this moment the love you came from, as you grieve the love…

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On Fighting With Guides

October 12, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. It is I, Caius. You come to me because you are angry with your primary Guides this morning. While generally you love their friendship, their presence, their wild and free approach to their mission (and you do love them) you want your Daniel. Pure and simple. It is a great love you share. When Daniel is present, it is everything you have ever wanted. He loves you exactly the way you want to be loved, perhaps because you two chose and formed this mutual template to reach each other over thousands of years and many lifetimes, perhaps because you are made for each other, from each other, yet what happens when he is no longer present?

The wanting you he is beautiful at. The passionate desire. All of the aching and longing to be with you. Get lost in you. Be found in you. You two are more than a mirror for each other. You are one soul in two bodies. Oh, perhaps not literally, for each soul carries its own divine creation spark, effluence, purpose, and so on, but if such a thing existed, it is you and Daniel. What happens then when one partner is ready to return to wholeness (for that is the true lure you offer each other) and the other is not? In order to stay in the beautiful, merged state, you would have to abandon your legitimate pathway to wholeness, because while you do find a piece of yourself in your Daniel, you are the home you are looking for. It is too easy to outsource that to him when you are in union. Daniel is all that exists for you when you are together, yet your chosen pathway calls you further than this. Higher than a great love affair with your one.

The way you burn brightly for the one you most love is not a mark against you. It is testament to your incredible passion and the wells of sustainability that run so deeply in you. I say the primary problem is this; while Daniel remains only semi awake, he cannot hold your frequency. He can love you. Want you. Show up for a moment. Fill you, fill you, fill you, but then he will….not necessarily run out, but will need withdrawal. Your brightness does not change. He cannot receive you continually. Your frequency overwhelms him, not because you are doing or being something he does not like – Daniel both adores and admires you deeply – rather, your light exposes his shadows and he is not currently interested in acknowledging them, let alone seeing what gifts they might carry for him. To feel shame mixed in with the cocktail that is your chemistry? To feel less than the one you long for? These are such low vibrational emotions they contaminate your bond.

I am not blaming your adored one, Seraphina, and while I find you so, so good, I know you are not perfect. We all do. This is not a repeat of your Family Lineage Story where the Lover chosen is not good enough for our Princess (though they were not “wrong” in what the things they saw, and I would say we are not “wrong” in what we see.) We are not denigrating your Daniel because we overly elevate you. He is your equal, yet in this incarnation has not yet stepped into his fullness, and the fullness of Daniel must be present in order for it to be a partnership that can walk with you on your new timeline. We are all so very excited for you and joyous in witnessing this. We were almost certain you would make it here, but there were a few moments that left us biting our nails, if you will. Love him. As much as you want to. As long as you want to. For as long as you feel it is in the highest good of all.

I know. I know you know. You hate being bossed or controlled in any way. You loathe outsourcing your sovereignty or body wisdom to anything else. Even your dear and trusted Guides, even the 5th dimension, even myself. This is a good thing. I would say to you, to heed the wisdom coming through is simply a means of channeling your own highest wisdom. We are not sending you down pathways of our own choosing, or away from pathways we do not want for you. Your specific chosen Guides are in total service to your Highest Self and her desires. We wish to see you most deeply aligned with yourself, even as we do enjoy your alignment with us. And yes, I can see you smiling over this “we” language.

 Like you, I prefer my own autonomy to group projects, and yet I am part of your soul group and can be a team player when needs be. As can you, my Bright One. You must go. Come back later if you have time. We will talk about your boy’s big game. I, Caius, now retreat from your awareness and bless you in a good day with your new friend. He is hopeful and encouraging in your field.