May 19, 2023, Exercise from the book Healing Through the Akashic Records by Linda Howe page 106
“How does being who I am in this life help me to know that I am good at my core, whole and complete, as are all other beings?” This is funny. Even in writing you have a problem with this question, for you believe each soul is on a journey to wholeness and holiness, and while all carry divine spark and are moving toward their best and highest good via compassion and acceptance, woo woo versions of unconditional love for self and others do not in fact change things. To align with love and light is each soul’s free choice and some beings are not interested in that pathway. Some choose to use their divine spark for power unhinged, corruption, hedonistic pleasure that harms others, rape of the planet, disrespect to the mothers, the list continues. We would not say that they are perfect in their beings, rather that they are perfectly free to choose, and there is acceptance, room, space for their choice as a viable one in this Galaxy.
There are protectors for a reason. Providers for a reason. False declaration of “good” when it is not good, does not raise vibration or support the enlightenment of the planet. Though we see and know this author and love her dearly, her language and perspectives align with some and not with others. This simply means there is other wisdom more relevant for you. Perhaps a more cognizant wisdom for you would be the recognition that all souls are not on the Golden Path, do not wish to grow beyond their current stuck point, and to walk away from such beings in early days rather than being dragged down to painful depths you could have avoided had you not believed their unkindness or inability was a Batman Beacon calling forth your mission, and instead an indication of their lack of viability for you.
The next question goes, “Ask to see yourself as you are seeing and known in the records by Masters, teachers and loved ones.” Do you have a response? Delight. You are delighted in. Favored, supported, undergirded, enjoyed. The vast love and wild of your spirit, the paradoxical fierce and gentle that is you combine many of the puzzling aspects of the Divine, as evidenced through anima and animus. We see you as a being who integrates right and left brain, head and heart, mind and spirit, logic and reason with empathy and openness, structure (sometimes with immovable rigidity) along with fluid feminine movement and adaptability.
You feel a call to the mythic life because yours is the hero’s journey, and that is how you are seen and known to us; one who walks the hero’s path in full knowing of the depths, trial, pain and despair, but for the joy set before you. Even just for the hope of that joy you are willing to go. You are not a suffering servant like your Christ, though of course he could have chosen another way. You are Odysseus. Homer. Hercules. Achilles. Penthesilea. Morgrid. (Cheeky old witch? How dare you!) Success at the end, as well as accolades for a job well done, mission well served, and your ambition are honored here as well as your gentleness of soul.
Is there a particular reason my soul chose this me with all its experiences? Your soul liked this lineage – one of struggle to overcome, with actual overcoming in the midst. It seemed in alignment with your greatest values. The victory is ever so much sweeter with something to be overcome; lessons learned along the way. (Transformation as Oedipus, mythology, fate). Barkey and Clouse people transform. Yes, you have been near to and worked with lineages that subvert. This has brought much foiling to your transformation values, yet also has given you exactly what you need to achieve what you most long for; opportunities to transform, shape, shift, become anew, become again. You did not choose a partner to work with you in your desires, rather one who would provide for them through friction and tumult.
Another loved one is from a pleasure line. As you have experienced, there are joys and great weaknesses in this. When work or effort are required, this loved one quits on you. When he is up for you as a pleasure conduit, all is well. Though he carries much innate goodness, his pleasure seeking has escalated to the point where his soul is endeavoring to persevere via ascetic (lack) and pain. He is seeking his own purification. You do not see yourself as full of impurities to be burned out via trial. You go from strength to strength. From the Higher Self level, your loved one does not know whether you are a temptation or a gift, siren or seer, and he cannot fully say yes to the pleasure he finds in you, or no to it either. All who straddle a choice are choosing their own misery. A choice made in power goes further than one avoided from fear.