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Collective Wound of the Feminine

September 5, 2024 (Messaging in regard to prayer for Gisele Pelicot trial in France and Olypmic athlete Rebecca Cheptegei death at the hands of her partner)

Good morning, Seraphina Burning Bright. I, Caius, have come to you through your primary prayer, for you have need of me this day. I am here. I am here. I am here. I do not abandon. I do not take your gifts and use them up, offering nothing but my selfishness in return. There are good men, Daughter Mine. There are men who hold the masculine template of divine strength, divine love, divine power that is used in service of all, not just in worship of self. You image the wounds of the Divine Feminine that run through your collective. The rejection once receptivity has come. The manipulation of heart to assuage another’s desire that runs contrary to your own. Being raged against because you asked for equitable treatment. Having your head covered with a blanket of lies so that the man who wants to keep you can do so without your free choice to see then leave. Macro and micro aggressions. Needing to be overly cooperative or compliant to stay safe and well. Abandonment of your heart, mind, and body to serve a partner’s convenience.

Women are not perfect or perfected, but oh the harm done to the daughters of Eve by the sons of Adam. The books are thick, the library is full of them, and the bowl is full. Full of the tears of women as they grieve the harms come through the hands of men. You are part of correcting this imbalance, of righting this great wrong. This is not the wish of Gaia. She is near to revolt, ready to throw off all that are not on their way to ascension and starting fresh with those who are. The axis of power swings far too heavily toward men, and they have dug their heels in, committing even further to keeping their power rather than living in fairness with their divine counterparts. That is what is required to return balance to the planet, the collective, and the pair bonds, Dear One – shared power.

One of the things I like about your son’s football odyssey is this lesson in the sharing of power among brothers. It is a good learning pod for the journey of how to live with “I” in service to “We”. Not that the I is only in service to We, but knowing that there is no way to run the game without it. The energy of masculine and feminine must be imaged on the field in order for advancement to come. Receptivity meeting drive. Spoken word working with motion of the body. Commands and communication. Heart and will. Passion and Spirit. Leadership and listening. It is a good game. It is a good field of training. In many ways, even the penalties given there are in equity, for they teach there is consequence to come for individual or group error, or lack of fair play with intent, and it must be paid for the match to continue.

In your still dark walk around the yard just now, one light on in your kitchen changed the entire outdoor space. One light shining in the darkness illuminates. Sometimes the Divine Feminine withdraws her presence from low vibration beings and places as the Hathors do. Sometimes she uses her beauty to charm and cajole, as Venus does. Sometimes she uses her Dark Lilith energy to seduce and subserviate, and though this seems wrong to you, it is in high service. “I have something you desperately want. I am someone you desperately want. This is what you must give in return in order to have me.” Aphrodite comes carrying the spirit of passionate love, inviting her partner to the dance of soul deep mutual enthrallment, even if just for a moment. There are those who carry the sword, who fight, who enact justice. There are the mothers who nurture. The wise women who heal. The priestesses who call for return to Spirit. One light illuminates the darkness, Beloved, and there are thousands shining, soon to be millions. One by one you take your place. One by one you step into your role. One by one, you begin to move your weight to the other side of the Blue Planet, tilting the axis – perhaps too far for a season – then balancing your numbers in such a way that equity comes.

Queens stand, Beloved, and you have been crowned all your life. It is time to lay down your Venusian gifts of charm and overly harmonizing, stand in your power and begin to lead from your glory. You will be well met or not at all. It is a weighty season the Earth is coming into, but she is ready for a change in density. Those who work with her will see their efforts magnified and blessed. For the joy set before you, Daughter. For the joy. I love you. I venerate you for every level of your being from every level of mine. You are not alone. You are not unsupported. You are not helpless or powerless in this changing of power structure. Many go with you, and I am one who is joyous to do so. Light go with you. And so it is.

Lionsgate Lineage Work with Grandma

August 8, 2024

Daughter. My beautiful souled electron of fire and light, power and love, what you wish to bring forth does not wish to come this day, though your request is seen, heard and honored. Elizabeth Jane came into incarnation on a date that holds great power. That your cousin chose the same date speaks to the power of the women in this lineage. Elizabeth Jane chose a family of great material wealth, emotional duplicity, and spiritual openness, however, in many of the members the sensitivity was corrupted. While all are free to explore in any way they choose, in my opinion, Ouija boards, elevation through sexual priesthood, and coming to Spirit via too many spirits (I jest to lighten the energy some, for this is weighty for you. Although it is past, the vibration still runs through the lineage seeking to find a place where it can burst forth and run free) leave a transit of corrupted energy behind them. The desire for purity of expression can be present, but purity devolves through the vehicle chosen.

So then. Part of Betty Jane’s soul desire was to begin the work of the balance of masculine to feminine on the Blue Planet, believing her leonine feminine container was strong enough to hold this, particularly because of the training ground that was her chosen family of origin. When she partnered with Bob Clouse, a spiritual warrior of the highest order, her desire was that their offspring carry the qualities of divine masculine and feminine expressed in perfect balance. She longed for the ideal and believed she could bring it about. I will interject my own communication to share the reason you struggle to find her, connect with her energy is because she has returned to Light. She has completed her incarnations and has returned to union with Source. It was a good lifetime even in its challenges, and she left behind all she intended to in her daughters and granddaughters – children of the Lioness, made to hunt, roam, provide, nurture, love, fight, protect and preserve the next generation, each in her own way. This bloodline is strong. This bloodline lives on. This bloodline achieves all it intended to.

Michael had his chosen pathway; a firstborn in the new generation who was willing to abdicate his place so that a younger lioness could come first, ushering in and welcoming the era of female on par with male. Your cousin’s marital union has imaged this new world order, and though you fought for it with the Warrior, not achieving what you hoped for, you remained lioness. Though some daughters image Sekhmet and others Isis, when Elizabeth Jane saw that the daughters of her daughters were ascending, she felt free to do so as well. This old and ancient enchantress who contributed her fire and her power, her sensuality and her theater, her codependence and ruling through manipulation, her spiritual devotion and devolution (for in her mind the end justified the means) has ascended, and with her ascension the daughters of her blood and bone and spirit ascend to their next dimension as well.

This is what I have to share with you on the 888 portal and your Cousin Queen’s shared birthday. She now picks up the Family Matriarch Mantle, though she is free to do whatever she wants with it, even laying it down. Redemption of the bloodline does not come through her, does not come through you, however, ascension does. Higher vibration, higher connection, soul return are now come. Happy Earth Incarnation, glorious Angel who is carrying all the light codes needed for the completion of family work. Each of you are your own in ways not yet experienced and this I love, but future good will come through the ways you belong to the unit. I, Caius now retreat from your awareness, and close the records of the Clouse Women Lineage on Lionsgate 2024, blessing and sealing all that has come, and all the desires to come. Go in peace, daughter of the Light.

On Fighting With Guides

October 12, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. It is I, Caius. You come to me because you are angry with your primary Guides this morning. While generally you love their friendship, their presence, their wild and free approach to their mission (and you do love them) you want your Daniel. Pure and simple. It is a great love you share. When Daniel is present, it is everything you have ever wanted. He loves you exactly the way you want to be loved, perhaps because you two chose and formed this mutual template to reach each other over thousands of years and many lifetimes, perhaps because you are made for each other, from each other, yet what happens when he is no longer present?

The wanting you he is beautiful at. The passionate desire. All of the aching and longing to be with you. Get lost in you. Be found in you. You two are more than a mirror for each other. You are one soul in two bodies. Oh, perhaps not literally, for each soul carries its own divine creation spark, effluence, purpose, and so on, but if such a thing existed, it is you and Daniel. What happens then when one partner is ready to return to wholeness (for that is the true lure you offer each other) and the other is not? In order to stay in the beautiful, merged state, you would have to abandon your legitimate pathway to wholeness, because while you do find a piece of yourself in your Daniel, you are the home you are looking for. It is too easy to outsource that to him when you are in union. Daniel is all that exists for you when you are together, yet your chosen pathway calls you further than this. Higher than a great love affair with your one.

The way you burn brightly for the one you most love is not a mark against you. It is testament to your incredible passion and the wells of sustainability that run so deeply in you. I say the primary problem is this; while Daniel remains only semi awake, he cannot hold your frequency. He can love you. Want you. Show up for a moment. Fill you, fill you, fill you, but then he will….not necessarily run out, but will need withdrawal. Your brightness does not change. He cannot receive you continually. Your frequency overwhelms him, not because you are doing or being something he does not like – Daniel both adores and admires you deeply – rather, your light exposes his shadows and he is not currently interested in acknowledging them, let alone seeing what gifts they might carry for him. To feel shame mixed in with the cocktail that is your chemistry? To feel less than the one you long for? These are such low vibrational emotions they contaminate your bond.

I am not blaming your adored one, Seraphina, and while I find you so, so good, I know you are not perfect. We all do. This is not a repeat of your Family Lineage Story where the Lover chosen is not good enough for our Princess (though they were not “wrong” in what the things they saw, and I would say we are not “wrong” in what we see.) We are not denigrating your Daniel because we overly elevate you. He is your equal, yet in this incarnation has not yet stepped into his fullness, and the fullness of Daniel must be present in order for it to be a partnership that can walk with you on your new timeline. We are all so very excited for you and joyous in witnessing this. We were almost certain you would make it here, but there were a few moments that left us biting our nails, if you will. Love him. As much as you want to. As long as you want to. For as long as you feel it is in the highest good of all.

I know. I know you know. You hate being bossed or controlled in any way. You loathe outsourcing your sovereignty or body wisdom to anything else. Even your dear and trusted Guides, even the 5th dimension, even myself. This is a good thing. I would say to you, to heed the wisdom coming through is simply a means of channeling your own highest wisdom. We are not sending you down pathways of our own choosing, or away from pathways we do not want for you. Your specific chosen Guides are in total service to your Highest Self and her desires. We wish to see you most deeply aligned with yourself, even as we do enjoy your alignment with us. And yes, I can see you smiling over this “we” language.

 Like you, I prefer my own autonomy to group projects, and yet I am part of your soul group and can be a team player when needs be. As can you, my Bright One. You must go. Come back later if you have time. We will talk about your boy’s big game. I, Caius, now retreat from your awareness and bless you in a good day with your new friend. He is hopeful and encouraging in your field.

Barbed Wire Relationship

August 11, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. You are frustrated about your lover again and it is weighing on your auric field. This man child takes up so much space for you. When he is caring well for you, it is a positive impact. When his treatment is poor, it is a less resourceful impact, but always it is much. This is a combination of the ways your energies merge (you are under his skin as well) how you love, your soul patterning, and the roller coaster of harmony or not. Let us call in a relationship guide who may be able to assist.

What feels like a medicine man steps forward, inspects the bond, then he says, “There is much toxicity in this connection. Powerful. The vines that were once green and young, flexible and full of possibility for where growth could go, have become thick. Hardened. Woody. Breakable. Strong storms tear them down, but it is a deeply rooted tree and shoots form yet again. However, the source is not healthy. Contaminated by jealousies, insecurity towards self and the other, bitterness, unforgiveness, pain of all kinds. This could have been transformed if you were both willing to drink the medicine down to the roots, but you are not both willing.

This is your dear friend, yet his barbs pierce you often. The punctures become infected and never heal because they are unseen by him. They wish to be witnessed in order to heal. Acknowledged. You are his true love and treasure, yet when he reaches for you, his barbed self pierces you. What is to be done about this? What is to be done? One of you must change, and of their own free will. You must harden or he must soften. You must grow a second skin armor to endure his barbs, or he must choose a new costume. You try to sand away his rough edges so you can come close to him without being hurt. He comes near you and does not understand why you are turning from him. You want him to lay the barbed wire costume down and be the softness he is without it, but if this is the protection he has chosen to make his way through the world, who are you to say he must lay it down, choose the needs of the relationship, choose to meet your needs?

If this barbed man chooses himself in ways that make him unapproachable or wounding, it is on you to either ask him to change for the survival of the relationship, or to walk away and choose more fit partners. It is not viable for you to find some way to not be injured. When human flesh wraps round barbed wire, or vice versa, the wire is not harmed – flesh is. He has always looked like this, at least for as long as you have known him. It was you coming closer and closer that has caused the change, for you now feel the impact as you try to cross the fence and get to the man it is protecting. What you see in him is true. Your vision is clear, and you are not confused or reading him wrong. Your wounds are true. They come from the one you love. They are given with intention, meant to keep you out. You keep asking him to see how his barbs are hurting you, to care that he is injuring you with them when all you have ever done is love him, and though he does not say anything to you, if he was willing it would be, ‘Good. The structure is doing its job then, sending you back, keeping you out.’

Your partner wants love, yes, but from a distance. His truest desire in the now is self protection. You cannot change this, nor should you desire to impinge on his free choice. Is the plane of love better than the plane of isolation? Yes, this is undisputed. And he does not belong to you. You alone belong to you. You do not have someone working with you for the good of the relationship, or even someone who can be concerned with your good. This is the medicine – acceptance. Whether you stay close or walk away is your free choice. I am not uncaring, unfeeling. I do have gentleness towards you. But your well-being has not been fully served by the gentleness of your Guides here. I desire the evolution of all who want to rise, and you, Dear Child, very much want to rise. I have said what I will say. The rest is up to you. You now have the strength and wisdom to apply these truths to receive this medicine. Your wounds will heal and the lesson of trying to merge flesh with wire will stay with you. If ever you meet it again, you will recognize and run. I have spoken and so it is.”