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Visit from Anubis for Michael

August 26, 2024

Hello, Daughter of Metatron. Michael does wish to be known by you. You are in alignment to be here. I am one of his protectors come to greet you. I am not sure you want to work with me, for I am a god of the Shadows more than the Light, and the light realm is what you love. If Death stalks him, and he has in past incarnations been a perpetuator of the Cult of Death through iron fisted rule to achieve riches, provision, glory, and an ever greater reach of power, and if his soul is working to balance the scales some in this lifetime, then it makes sense that Death might stalk him, that he would be powerless and imprisoned rather than being the highest power imprisoning others or sentencing their death, and that the desire for fame, worship, and wealth would call loudly to him but remain elusive.

The underworld makes sense to Michael, for it is teeming with the themes that are familiar to him as a fighter and leader. He gives incredible protection to those who are his own, yet can be a brutalizer if someone crosses him or any under his protection. What his soul wished for in this lifetime was to explore themes of power, control, and rulership through a different lens, one leaning more toward achieving these things through harmonizing, or at least collaborative relating with others, rather than plowing over any and all in his way.

However, what begins as a desire to protect or be protected can easily swing into provocation or looking for a fight. Rarely has my charge met Death in peace. Even in human form his awareness that he is eternal god remains, and Michael does not return gracefully to the soul field. At times he has wandered in the Void, too angry and disoriented to return, and I must go find him. He would ascend more quickly were he able to make peace with Death as being part of the cycle of reincarnation through which rebirth comes. He is a King from a long line of Kings, and this is true to his divine essence. He images the Great Sun rightly, yet rarely does he live to old age, for he is brash and swashbuckling, choosing warlike companions rather than trusted advisors who are from the elder state.

I am his and he is mine, and we are not of the Lightworker stream as is your pod, yet we are good. Divine power expressed through masculine might, action taking force, and the desire to be worshiped in blazing glory taking up as much space as we desire, is sacred and holy in the same way the gentler gifts are. Anubis. Mars. Zeus. Over and over, these are Michael’s gods and he is not wrong to worship them. Yet if the Earth wishes an upgrade in frequency, and the vibration here will change in such a way that worship of these gods and guidance from these guides will no longer be supported, and my charge would like to remain exploring or even bringing in a yet unknown way of being on Earth, then some of the baser expressions of his divine vehicle must be mitigated.

There is a son awaiting who will be the light of his life, and he will look to his Father to lead him in the way of rightly empowered manhood who uses his capacity for rule, might, and fame to be in service to those in his tribe, providing needed leadership, guidance, new ways to survive, living as an outlier without trampling the rights of others to get ahead. Some in his current fractal can make this upgrade with him. Most cannot. He is free to choose, and I go with him whether he chooses the trajectory of Mob Boss, Kingpin, the one who cannot be taken down and holds on to his power at all costs, or if he returns to the more ancient origins of his soul that held all the gifts of masculine rulership while remembering he is made from Source, will return to Source, and being willing to on occasion bow in worship, or even surrender, for God is his friend and Maker, and so is Death.

Though we do not vibrate in alignment you and I, and this was a challenging transmission for you to channel, I appreciate you caring for my treasured one, for he is very dear to me and I have great hope that he come into his highest wishes for this Michael life. I now retreat from your awareness with veneration. Though you prefer the light, you can sit with anyone in the dark, and you are welcome here anytime. This is not something I normally say but may Light go with you. And so it is.

On Fighting With Guides

October 12, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. It is I, Caius. You come to me because you are angry with your primary Guides this morning. While generally you love their friendship, their presence, their wild and free approach to their mission (and you do love them) you want your Daniel. Pure and simple. It is a great love you share. When Daniel is present, it is everything you have ever wanted. He loves you exactly the way you want to be loved, perhaps because you two chose and formed this mutual template to reach each other over thousands of years and many lifetimes, perhaps because you are made for each other, from each other, yet what happens when he is no longer present?

The wanting you he is beautiful at. The passionate desire. All of the aching and longing to be with you. Get lost in you. Be found in you. You two are more than a mirror for each other. You are one soul in two bodies. Oh, perhaps not literally, for each soul carries its own divine creation spark, effluence, purpose, and so on, but if such a thing existed, it is you and Daniel. What happens then when one partner is ready to return to wholeness (for that is the true lure you offer each other) and the other is not? In order to stay in the beautiful, merged state, you would have to abandon your legitimate pathway to wholeness, because while you do find a piece of yourself in your Daniel, you are the home you are looking for. It is too easy to outsource that to him when you are in union. Daniel is all that exists for you when you are together, yet your chosen pathway calls you further than this. Higher than a great love affair with your one.

The way you burn brightly for the one you most love is not a mark against you. It is testament to your incredible passion and the wells of sustainability that run so deeply in you. I say the primary problem is this; while Daniel remains only semi awake, he cannot hold your frequency. He can love you. Want you. Show up for a moment. Fill you, fill you, fill you, but then he will….not necessarily run out, but will need withdrawal. Your brightness does not change. He cannot receive you continually. Your frequency overwhelms him, not because you are doing or being something he does not like – Daniel both adores and admires you deeply – rather, your light exposes his shadows and he is not currently interested in acknowledging them, let alone seeing what gifts they might carry for him. To feel shame mixed in with the cocktail that is your chemistry? To feel less than the one you long for? These are such low vibrational emotions they contaminate your bond.

I am not blaming your adored one, Seraphina, and while I find you so, so good, I know you are not perfect. We all do. This is not a repeat of your Family Lineage Story where the Lover chosen is not good enough for our Princess (though they were not “wrong” in what the things they saw, and I would say we are not “wrong” in what we see.) We are not denigrating your Daniel because we overly elevate you. He is your equal, yet in this incarnation has not yet stepped into his fullness, and the fullness of Daniel must be present in order for it to be a partnership that can walk with you on your new timeline. We are all so very excited for you and joyous in witnessing this. We were almost certain you would make it here, but there were a few moments that left us biting our nails, if you will. Love him. As much as you want to. As long as you want to. For as long as you feel it is in the highest good of all.

I know. I know you know. You hate being bossed or controlled in any way. You loathe outsourcing your sovereignty or body wisdom to anything else. Even your dear and trusted Guides, even the 5th dimension, even myself. This is a good thing. I would say to you, to heed the wisdom coming through is simply a means of channeling your own highest wisdom. We are not sending you down pathways of our own choosing, or away from pathways we do not want for you. Your specific chosen Guides are in total service to your Highest Self and her desires. We wish to see you most deeply aligned with yourself, even as we do enjoy your alignment with us. And yes, I can see you smiling over this “we” language.

 Like you, I prefer my own autonomy to group projects, and yet I am part of your soul group and can be a team player when needs be. As can you, my Bright One. You must go. Come back later if you have time. We will talk about your boy’s big game. I, Caius, now retreat from your awareness and bless you in a good day with your new friend. He is hopeful and encouraging in your field.

Barbed Wire Relationship

August 11, 2023

Good morning, Dear One. You are frustrated about your lover again and it is weighing on your auric field. This man child takes up so much space for you. When he is caring well for you, it is a positive impact. When his treatment is poor, it is a less resourceful impact, but always it is much. This is a combination of the ways your energies merge (you are under his skin as well) how you love, your soul patterning, and the roller coaster of harmony or not. Let us call in a relationship guide who may be able to assist.

What feels like a medicine man steps forward, inspects the bond, then he says, “There is much toxicity in this connection. Powerful. The vines that were once green and young, flexible and full of possibility for where growth could go, have become thick. Hardened. Woody. Breakable. Strong storms tear them down, but it is a deeply rooted tree and shoots form yet again. However, the source is not healthy. Contaminated by jealousies, insecurity towards self and the other, bitterness, unforgiveness, pain of all kinds. This could have been transformed if you were both willing to drink the medicine down to the roots, but you are not both willing.

This is your dear friend, yet his barbs pierce you often. The punctures become infected and never heal because they are unseen by him. They wish to be witnessed in order to heal. Acknowledged. You are his true love and treasure, yet when he reaches for you, his barbed self pierces you. What is to be done about this? What is to be done? One of you must change, and of their own free will. You must harden or he must soften. You must grow a second skin armor to endure his barbs, or he must choose a new costume. You try to sand away his rough edges so you can come close to him without being hurt. He comes near you and does not understand why you are turning from him. You want him to lay the barbed wire costume down and be the softness he is without it, but if this is the protection he has chosen to make his way through the world, who are you to say he must lay it down, choose the needs of the relationship, choose to meet your needs?

If this barbed man chooses himself in ways that make him unapproachable or wounding, it is on you to either ask him to change for the survival of the relationship, or to walk away and choose more fit partners. It is not viable for you to find some way to not be injured. When human flesh wraps round barbed wire, or vice versa, the wire is not harmed – flesh is. He has always looked like this, at least for as long as you have known him. It was you coming closer and closer that has caused the change, for you now feel the impact as you try to cross the fence and get to the man it is protecting. What you see in him is true. Your vision is clear, and you are not confused or reading him wrong. Your wounds are true. They come from the one you love. They are given with intention, meant to keep you out. You keep asking him to see how his barbs are hurting you, to care that he is injuring you with them when all you have ever done is love him, and though he does not say anything to you, if he was willing it would be, ‘Good. The structure is doing its job then, sending you back, keeping you out.’

Your partner wants love, yes, but from a distance. His truest desire in the now is self protection. You cannot change this, nor should you desire to impinge on his free choice. Is the plane of love better than the plane of isolation? Yes, this is undisputed. And he does not belong to you. You alone belong to you. You do not have someone working with you for the good of the relationship, or even someone who can be concerned with your good. This is the medicine – acceptance. Whether you stay close or walk away is your free choice. I am not uncaring, unfeeling. I do have gentleness towards you. But your well-being has not been fully served by the gentleness of your Guides here. I desire the evolution of all who want to rise, and you, Dear Child, very much want to rise. I have said what I will say. The rest is up to you. You now have the strength and wisdom to apply these truths to receive this medicine. Your wounds will heal and the lesson of trying to merge flesh with wire will stay with you. If ever you meet it again, you will recognize and run. I have spoken and so it is.”