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Visit from Anubis for Michael

August 26, 2024

Hello, Daughter of Metatron. Michael does wish to be known by you. You are in alignment to be here. I am one of his protectors come to greet you. I am not sure you want to work with me, for I am a god of the Shadows more than the Light, and the light realm is what you love. If Death stalks him, and he has in past incarnations been a perpetuator of the Cult of Death through iron fisted rule to achieve riches, provision, glory, and an ever greater reach of power, and if his soul is working to balance the scales some in this lifetime, then it makes sense that Death might stalk him, that he would be powerless and imprisoned rather than being the highest power imprisoning others or sentencing their death, and that the desire for fame, worship, and wealth would call loudly to him but remain elusive.

The underworld makes sense to Michael, for it is teeming with the themes that are familiar to him as a fighter and leader. He gives incredible protection to those who are his own, yet can be a brutalizer if someone crosses him or any under his protection. What his soul wished for in this lifetime was to explore themes of power, control, and rulership through a different lens, one leaning more toward achieving these things through harmonizing, or at least collaborative relating with others, rather than plowing over any and all in his way.

However, what begins as a desire to protect or be protected can easily swing into provocation or looking for a fight. Rarely has my charge met Death in peace. Even in human form his awareness that he is eternal god remains, and Michael does not return gracefully to the soul field. At times he has wandered in the Void, too angry and disoriented to return, and I must go find him. He would ascend more quickly were he able to make peace with Death as being part of the cycle of reincarnation through which rebirth comes. He is a King from a long line of Kings, and this is true to his divine essence. He images the Great Sun rightly, yet rarely does he live to old age, for he is brash and swashbuckling, choosing warlike companions rather than trusted advisors who are from the elder state.

I am his and he is mine, and we are not of the Lightworker stream as is your pod, yet we are good. Divine power expressed through masculine might, action taking force, and the desire to be worshiped in blazing glory taking up as much space as we desire, is sacred and holy in the same way the gentler gifts are. Anubis. Mars. Zeus. Over and over, these are Michael’s gods and he is not wrong to worship them. Yet if the Earth wishes an upgrade in frequency, and the vibration here will change in such a way that worship of these gods and guidance from these guides will no longer be supported, and my charge would like to remain exploring or even bringing in a yet unknown way of being on Earth, then some of the baser expressions of his divine vehicle must be mitigated.

There is a son awaiting who will be the light of his life, and he will look to his Father to lead him in the way of rightly empowered manhood who uses his capacity for rule, might, and fame to be in service to those in his tribe, providing needed leadership, guidance, new ways to survive, living as an outlier without trampling the rights of others to get ahead. Some in his current fractal can make this upgrade with him. Most cannot. He is free to choose, and I go with him whether he chooses the trajectory of Mob Boss, Kingpin, the one who cannot be taken down and holds on to his power at all costs, or if he returns to the more ancient origins of his soul that held all the gifts of masculine rulership while remembering he is made from Source, will return to Source, and being willing to on occasion bow in worship, or even surrender, for God is his friend and Maker, and so is Death.

Though we do not vibrate in alignment you and I, and this was a challenging transmission for you to channel, I appreciate you caring for my treasured one, for he is very dear to me and I have great hope that he come into his highest wishes for this Michael life. I now retreat from your awareness with veneration. Though you prefer the light, you can sit with anyone in the dark, and you are welcome here anytime. This is not something I normally say but may Light go with you. And so it is.

Addiction Pain in Relationship

May 10, 2024

You come wishing to know Patrick in the light of the Akashic Records, for you are very ready to close the container of pain he has been for you and move on, but he does not wish to be known by you, nor does he wish to know you, for then he must own the being he is and the choices he has made. Addiction is a very hard path, whether one chooses it pre-incarnation or steps into it once on the Earth plane. He feels dirty and tainted in the light of your love for him. It does not feel like a gift, for he feels undeserving. Patrick does not experience life through the lens of want. He craves. He craves, but is never satisfied. He is (perhaps) choosing a sober lifestyle, but he has not yet found any inner healing for the wounds that led him to choose substance as the remedy. Patrick is the Magician and carries all Kings within him, has been all Kings in past lifetimes, so rarely has his relationship with power been balanced or healthy.

He has often been carousing and grabbing with his resources, with his charm, with his agency, at the cost of others, yet he generally carries a deep heart as well. Deep heart is not the same thing as conscience. It is simply capacity for vast feeling and empathy. Character is needed to carry deep heart, strong craving, wells of empathy, and compassion for the “lesser.” Talent, winsomeness, might, along with a mind so busy it is often racing describe your Patrick. Some of these are the true nature of his soul and origins, some are residual Earth wounds that follow him from lifetime to lifetime and grow. The backlog of all is felt as a heavy weight in this incarnation, and thus far he has not found a way to incorporate all he is in one human container. He will delve fully into one arena, distancing himself from all others, then he will shut that part down, moving on to another, as if that is a remedy for the imbalance and massive personality swings he experiences.

His mind is corrupted. As in clouded. There is fog and residual film left from the years of hard drug use. His body, mind, heart, and psyche have all been abused and carried the signature of abuse, whether he now enacts it toward himself or another. This is the signature that is currently replicating, currently reproducing within him in this lifetime. Patrick is not willing to actively abuse another, but what is within always makes its way out at some point. He was ready for the upgrade when you came on the scene, Dear One. He was magnetically drawn to you, recognized your signature, craved you insatiably as he does all things he wants, yet when the timeline jump came, you leapt to the new reality and he did not.

The plan was to go together. To heal, transform, upgrade in tandem with each other. The passion between you was not just physical, it was electric on every level of your being, therefore it was going to bring power to every area it touched. That power filled you up in the best way and brought enough centrifugal force to propel you to the next level. That same beautiful power overloaded his panel and multiple circuits broke, shutting down his energy grid instead of upgrading it. If you can step back from the romantic wounding – which is deep and wrenching and painful to your bones – and see him from the soul level, the story reads differently. Two soul mates who met at the predestined time they had chosen together because both were ready to transcend what had come before and reach the next version of themselves together. You do well to comfort Patrick, letting him know his purpose in your life was accomplished, for nothing in your contract includes you being part of his devolution, self loathing or guilt signature. The line you vibrate on is love and light. The charge is in the kilowatts. If Patrick can only handle love in watts…..you understand the point we are making.

As this murder of crows captures the attention just now causing us to pause, listen more deeply, scan the sky more thoroughly, then alight on what is taking place – one Broadwing Hawk in their tree and another roosting on the pole below – let it be allegory of the loudness in your pain with Patrick. Continual and cawing though it is, it points you to pause, to listen, to see, and in this presence you will find the truths hidden in the noise. The wound of rejection for being the love and light you are and offering it to your chosen one in full abandon is loudly painful. Constant, crowing, interrupting your peace, calling for your attention, which you have done well giving, but you are one who particularly loves harmony, so continual dissonance of sound is an unwelcome disruption. However, if you begin to see the purpose in the messaging, it becomes interesting instead of frustrating.

He continues to be in service to you, as you are to him. This bond is a fast track to growth path, but the way through or out of it is not a quick journey. It will close on its own when all lessons have been gleaned and not before. You need not be anxious about pathology on your end. You are attuned and in tune. It unfolds in layers, and this was the layer willing to be revealed today. We thank you for your time and diligent listening, and we now retreat from your awareness leaving you with more clearness in your field as some of the debris caused by your relating with Patrick is now dissolved to light. And so it is. Amen.

What Is Prayer?

June 20, 2023

Co-Creation with Guides in the Records

Home from two weeks of travel. Exhausted body, heart, mind and spirit. Feelings of being so alone and unsupported, unpaired, unprotected, and energetically immersed in other people’s stuff – like this quagmire is holding me stuck that I am fighting to get through but not making much progress out of. What needs to happen so I can move forward? This needs to happen, Dear One. The quagmire of being stuck is come to show you how aligned you are with other people’s realities instead of your own. Your open emotional center is opening you to (and expanding your awareness of) other people’s stuff, and the other people you have been immersed in these past two weeks are not joyous. There are many entities clinging to your family, and many bitternesses welcome in the other family. These are the things you are currently drowning in.

How do I become clear of these things and come back into my own ecosystem again? Prayer is good. Prayer to release, prayer to forgive. Prayer to separate from, prayer to bless. Prayer to heal, prayer to be free.

What is prayer? That is a good question. The purity of prayer has been very corrupted in your churches, and its power severely diluted. Prayer is not pleading with the Divine for something it is unwilling to give but perhaps through your penitent pursuit it will deliver. Prayer is alignment with the Divine through speaking aligned words into the cosmos, into the air, into the soul. Prayer is the direction of your energy toward that which is good, right, and true, or what will bring about that which is good, right, and true.

Will you clear with me, assist me with words, as I pray now? To the ancestors known and unknown, I honor your work in the world and all you were that has brought about my being. I am happy for your happiness. I am sad for your sadness. I bless your soul on its journey and wish you peace in every way. May you find joy. May you find redemption. May you know self forgiveness. May you be free to live in the fullness of your beautiful Divinity. Your time has come and gone. I am hereby released from any bonds, contracts, agreements of choice, or force to be your lineage redeemer. I am a powerful one yes, but still just one. This collective work belongs to us together. That which is reciprocal and given for the highest good of all, including me, I receive. All that is or comes from anything but the highest good of all determined through divine love, light, and truth, I hereby release.

I release all fear, all dark power, all permeability, all collective injustice. All victimhood, powerlessness, blaming, shaming. All poverty, lack, scarcity, fighting for survival. All dogma, false charm, exaggerated importance. All violence, stealing, deceit, sneaking, fox in the hen house, burglary, racketeering, profiting at another’s expense. All deep, deep sadness leading to despair, all imbalance in the masculine and feminine, all increase in inequality, all limiting relationships. All fear of money, fear of power, fear of individuality, fear of bonding, fear of intimacy, fear of reproduction, fear of pleasure, fear of sex. All asceticism, purging through pain, all hatred of the body, of oneself, of another. All rage against the Divine, the cosmos, the Earth, its creatures. All suffering via cancer and heart issues and issues of the lymph and endocrine system. All war, all hatred, all abuse of self and others, all repudiation of the Earth’s good bounty. All mental illness, imbalance, lack of clarity, all emotional stifling or raging or overexpression, all dark nights of the soul that do not pass. These things I let go now, and hereby separate myself from. For the ways these have served and preserved, I thank you. For the ways they have intended good or survival, I thank you. For the ways these intended harm I bless and release and send to the highest good.

I, Stephanie Curtis, step into the light of the Divine where all things are possible. I move into the love of the Divine and I open my heart center. I choose to live every moment in the grace of the Divine with an open heart and a peaceful mind. I know forgiveness makes this possible. Today I forgive and release all pain known and unknown through all levels of my being, through all times and all dimensions for the highest good of all (all jealousy, revenge, treachery. All lying, cheating, stealing, particularly in close relationships. All abuse of the other to protect or exalt self.) I bless and release all illusions of wrongness. I lift up my eyes and see myself and others as pure reflections of Divine light and love. It is done, it is done, it is done. Amen.